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I don't like that this may be the THIRD time I'll have to change what I wanna do, what I've been looking forward to, what I've been waiting to do...because of money issues or problems that occur and not from my own end. |
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| 05:40pm 11/01/2009 |
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September 9th, I will be in theaters, even if it's for a midngith showing by myself! It's finally coming out, after hearing they were making this for years now! '9' is coming out in September!!!
For those who do not know what 9 is, look it up on youtube and watch it. It's gonna be fantastic, not an animated movie for kids, and I am happy with the trailer. It's gonna be fantastic!!!
9 Trailer:
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| 09:05pm 18/11/2008 |
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Due to having never played with it in about a year, I am now selling my Wii system for anyone who is interested in buying it.
sadly, I have sold all of my games back, but the system comes with two Wii-motes, a nunchuck, a classic controller, and a charger stand for the Wii-motes.
I am selling the entire thing for $250. This is a good deal considering you get an extra controller and a charger, both do not come with the system.
Tell anyone you know who is looking for a Wii this year, you guys don't necessarily have to be the ones to buy it.
Let me know if you guys are interested. It is sitting in its original box, in the best condition I could possibly give any system. Anyone interested?? |
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| 09:02pm 28/08/2008 |
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In honor of it being three months until my birthday, four months until Christmas...I began a search for the new video games that I need to add to my collection (y'know, since I only have two at the moment-Heavenly Sword, still because it's just so awesome, and Soul Calibur 4 because it just kicks ass). It's just a list I am keeping for myself so in case any family members ask me "what do you want for your birthday/Xmas?" I know what to tell them....gift cards to Best Buy!!!
For anyone else, check out some of these titles cause some of these sound really, really good
LittleBigPlanet (PS3)
Batman: Arkham Asylum (PS3) *if anything, this will be worth having a PS3 for anyone, lol*
Star Wars: The Force Unleashed (PS3)
Lego Batman (PS3)
God of War III (PS3)
Final Fantasy XIII (PS3)
Final Fantasy Versus XIII (PS3)
Bayonetta (PS3) *the trailer alone makes me want this game*
Chrono Trigger (DS)
Legendary (PS3) *looks promising but I'm trying to find more info on it*
Mortal Kombat vs. DS Universe (PS3) *just think, Batman versus Sub Zero...yay*
Kingdom Hearts: 358/2 Days (DS)
Infamous (PS3)
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| Weekends Are Fun |
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| 11:41am 19/08/2008 |
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Last weekend was a good weekend ^_^
Friday was my sister's birthday. Usually she does something special just for me so I thought I'd do the same, like get her a huge balloon. Well, I couldn't decide on one so...I bought 10, lol. Was going to buy 19 for her age, but they didn't all fit in the car >.< Don't ever try driving with over 5 balloons in the car- you cannot see anything behind you, it was so hard to back out of a spot and head home with balloons batting you in the side of the head the whole time ^_^; Went to Hayama for dinner with my parents, grandma, and our boyfriends. Good food, good company, good times.
Saturday was Justin's friend Matt's birthday so he was having a party at his house. Had pizza, joked and talked, and watched Robocop. Matt was drunk and probably more entertaining than the movie ever could be. The best question of the night- "Did you ever think, just for a second, that I spoke a different language? And it turned into English just before it hits your ear?" lol, I had more fun than I thought I would too. Came home and Justin got to sleep over ^_^ <3 played video games for awhile until my parents and sister went to bed so we cuddled in my bed watching TV until he wanted to go to bed. I'm happy that my parents let him sleep over occassionally. It's nice to be able to wake up, wander down the hall, and see him still with me, still in the house with me, still in my reach. I think I'm just too in love sometimes, cause I ALWAYS miss him whenever he's not around. Not in a cling I-have-to-be-with-you-24/7 kinda thing, but enough where it makes me kinda sad he's not around, but it also makes me enjoy being with him more when he IS there.
Sunday we went to the Trumbull mall for the afternoon. I bought two new pairs of shoes- one is green and white, the other is black and pink, both sneakers. Also bought another shirt that, ironically, goes well with my jean skirt that I have. Justin bought me this adorable mint tin that looks like a tub with yellow ducky mints inside- so adorable! lol. Watched an episode or two of lost, played video games, and then he went home.
very excited to be going back to school- I miss seeing everyone and actually DOING something every day, unlike now where I'm bored half the time, lol. But, meh, what can you do? Summer is too long anyway.
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Appearance:
I am 5'4 or shorter.
I think I'm ugly.
I have many scars.
I tan easily.
I wish my hair was a different color.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have a tattoo.
I am self-conscious about my appearance.
I have/I've had braces.
I wear glasses.
I'd get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free, scar-free.
I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
I have had more than 2 piercings.
I have had piercings in places besides my ears.
I have freckles.
Family/Home Life:
I've sworn at my parents.
I've run away from home.
I've been kicked out of the house.
My biological parents are together.
I have a sibling less than one year old.
I want to have kids someday.
I have children.
I've lost a child.
Embarrassment:
I've slipped out a "LOL" in a spoken conversation.
Disney movies still make me cry.
I've snorted while laughing.
I've laughed so hard I've cried.
I've glued my hand to something.
I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
I've had my trousers rip in public.
Health:
I was born with a disease/impairment.
I've had stitches.
I've broken a bone.
I've sat in a doctor's office with a friend.
I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
I've had serious surgery.
I've had chicken pox.
Relationships:
I'm single.
I'm in a relationship.
I'm available.
I'm engaged.
I'm married.
I've gone on a blind date.
I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
I've kept something from a past relationship.
Sexuality:
I've had a crush on someone of the same gender.
I've kissed a member of the same gender.
I've had sex with someone of the opposite gender.
I've had sex with someone of the same gender.
I've had sex with more than one person at the same time.
I am a cuddler.
I've been kissed in the rain.
I've had sex outdoors.
I've hugged a stranger.
I have kissed a stranger.
I have had sex with a stranger.
Traveling:
I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
I've been on a plane.
I've been to North America.
I've been to Niagara Falls.
I've been to Japan.
I've been to Europe.
I've been to Africa.
Experiences:
I've been lost in my city.
I've seen a shooting star.
I've wished on a shooting star.
I've seen a meteor shower.
I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
I've pushed all the buttons in a lift.
I've been to a casino.
I've been skydiving.
I've gone skinny dipping.
I've played spin the bottle.
I've crashed a car.
I've been skiing.
I've been in a play.
I've met someone in person from the Internet.
I've seen the Northern Lights.
I've sat on a roof top at night.
I've played chicken.
I've seen the Rocky Horror Show.
I've eaten sushi.
I've been snowboarding.
Honesty/Crime:
I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
I have lied to my parents about where I am.
I am keeping a secret from the world.
I've cheated while playing a game.
I've cheated on a test.
I've driven through a red light.
I've been suspended from school.
I've witnessed a crime.
I've been in a fist fight.
I've been arrested.
I've shoplifted.
Drugs/Alcohol:
I've consumed alcohol.
I smoke cigarettes.
I smoke pot.
I regularly drink.
I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
I take cough medication when I'm not sick.
I've done hard drugs.
I've been addicted to an illegal substance.
I can't swallow pills.
I can swallow about 5 pills at a time with no problem.
Mental health:
I have been diagnosed with depression.
I shut others out when I'm depressed.
I take/have taken anti-depressants.
I have had an eating disorder.
I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
I've hurt myself on purpose.
I'm addicted to self harm.
I've woken up crying.
Death:
I'm afraid of dying.
I hate funerals.
I've seen someone dying.
I have attempted suicide.
Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
Someone close to me has committed suicide.
Random:
I can sing well.
I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
I open up to others too easily.
I watch the news.
I don't kill bugs. I try.
I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for sake of being able to rhyme.
I fucking swear regularly.
I am a morning person.
I paid for my mobile phone ring tone.
I'm a snob about grammar.
I am a sports fanatic.
I play with my hair.
I have/had "x"s in my screen name.
I love being neat.
I love Spam.
I've copied more than 30 Cd's in a day.
I bake well.
I know how to shoot a gun.
I am in love with love.
I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
I laugh at my own jokes.
I eat fast food weekly.
I believe in ghosts.
I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
I am really ticklish.
I love white chocolate.
I bite my nails.
I play video games.
I'm good at remembering faces.
I'm good at remembering names.
I'm good at remembering dates.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
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| 01:44pm 09/08/2008 |
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Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann is my second all-time favorite anime ever!!! For anyone that hasn't seen it, especially fans of mecha anime, you HAVE to watch this show. It's amazing! The way its depecting of mecha anime progressing as the show goes on, the characters and their emotions and determination, the animation itself...superb! Thank you immensely Zor and Chris for...well...forcing me ^_^ to watch this show. I'm now in love with everything that is Gurren Lagann. (Fullmetal Alchemist memorabilia, you may have to share some room) |
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| 12:00am 31/07/2008 |
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I hate being a girl for one week out of every month. It makes me extremely crabby, irritable, and snappish. So sorry Justin cause I don't mean to take it out on you- you're just always there, lol.
Why don't guys ever have this problem? I think we should make it so guys have the luxury of having children as well. And I don't mean the bulls**t thats travelling on the news- that's not a guy, its a woman who had a sex change but kept her female parts, that doesn't count in the slightest and I think its retarded that they are getting so much publicity from it.
Soul Calibur 4 is an awesome game except that damn Sophitia who keeps kicking my ass and I had to put the game away for the night before I destroyed the controller...the usual Soul Calibur notion. |
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| 10:39am 24/07/2008 |
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So...The Dark Knight...seen it twice already, lol.
I've been waiting for this movie since I saw the ending of Batman Begins. I will admit, however, I was a bit upset hearing Heath Ledger was going to be the Joker- I really didn't think he would be able to do it and I am pleased to say that I was horribly wrong because he was amazing in this movie. I actually think he was better than Jack Nicholson in the original, but I actually like these movies much better than the original, and the crap ones (Batman Forever, etc).
It just blows me away the phsycological elements that are brought into this movie that many people might look over. I think its sad to admit this but I really think most of the hype is because of Ledger dying, everyone wants to go see this movie to see what exactly his role truly was to make him depressed. He was fantastic. He was nuts. He was silly. He was unbelieveable.
I think what creeps me out the most is that the Joker never cared if he died or not. He just wanted to create utter chaos, make people go running in fear, and didn't care what ever happened to him.
It was an amazing movie- whoever hasnt seen it yet- go! Now! Grab 10 bucks and run to your nearest theater and see this movie!
"Wanna see a magic trick? How bout I make this pencil disappear" |
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| 09:28pm 23/06/2008 |
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So AnimeNext has come and gone...very, very sad...but I had an absolute blast.
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Thursday:
Left around noonish from Justin's house and made it there in about an hour and a half. Not a bad drive actually. Got there wicked early and had to wait for the others on the train so I found Rob and the two Joes. Made a run to WalMart for various things, had an adventure trying to find a crab for Rob (don't ask) and went to see Kung Fu Panda. After the movie we still had time to kill so we stood in the pre-red line waiting for it to open. OMG the line was long! But we got in just as the crew showed up. Unpacked, relaxed, registered, ate chinese food, had some fun, went to sleep...yay...
Friday:
Again, stood in line...to get into the con. Watched a ghost run around outside; Come to find out it was Chris. Kara and I called Vinny and Adam to tell them there was a ghost on the premises and Vinny said "we'll be right there!" AND we made it in after a bit! Woo! They put bleachers in the wearehouse this time around which was nice. People could actually sit and watch events rather than all stand around the thing and not be able to see around tall people/tall costumes. Sat around and waited for Adam, Ryan, and Vinny while we watched the ghost run around the warehouse harrassing people, lol. In comes Adam dressed as Luigi from Luigi's Mansion, complete with a vaccuum, along with two ghostbusters. They attacked the ghost to cheers and pictures were taken. Justin and I went to an AMV panel that actually helped a lot. We got to see AMVs that won, heard what people liked and didnt like and such. Watched the AMV contast- gotta say, wasn't very impressed with most of the entrees this year, which is disappointing to me. Ate lunch, had dinner, watched TV with Justin, went to the Dealers Room. I didnt see a lot that I wanted either. I did, however, find this awesome giant red fan with cherry blossom tree branches on it. Wanted it very badly but figured it would be very expensive (never asked how much it was) and had no room for it. But Tuss bought me an awesome poster of Zero Suit Samus ^_^ <3 I got an L plushie from Justin, and I got myself a panda...
Don't they look alike? Lmao! Went to the Super Smash Bros. brawl photoshoot:
Needless to say, they had this photoshoot for us, lol. There is, I believe, 17-18 people from our SCSU group involved, along with a handful of people just from the con who joined in. It was fun. I met my Samus counterpart!
I kinda like my outfit a bit better but hers was cool too and she was really nice. Here's one of me and my boy. Tuss said we made a good pair together:
Then after dinner Tuss came back to our room and it started really pouring. Kara came in and we watched a nice lightning storm. Normally I'm afraid of thunder and lightning but I guess being with a few people I love being with made me feel a bit more comforted. Then Z0r joined us for awhile and Ting came in for a bit before leaving. It was a lot of fun. We joked and clothes were removed. The best part was when Heather walked by our room and heard "porn" instead of "pour" meaning the rain outside. So she knocks on the door to see what we were doing and my boy opens the door in his boxers. "...I heard porn and i was coming to see whats going on, and Justin opens the door in his boxers...im gonna go now" and walks away, lol.
Saturday:
Another cosplay day!
All of us got dressed and went to the arena altogether...and had pictures taken of us for two hours! it was fun though. We did a bunch of cool poses, one involving Justin taking a hit from...well, all of us, lol.
Went to the dealers room and the artist alley. Bought a handful of stickers, an FMA picture, and Liz bought me a bookmark of an extremely sexy Edward Elric...I may never read again, lol. Actually no, I'd probably read more...just never read what the book is, lol.
Took cosplay photos:
Went to Burger King for lunch with Adam, Ryan, Vinny, and Tuss which was fun. Bought Justin a Vash the Stampede plushie, and went to a dance that night. It was fun even thought I only stayed for an hour and a half. It was so gross and sweaty and hot in there! >.<
Sunday:
Kinda dull...went to the cosplay chess game around 10am...it was a lot of fun to watch. Makes me really wanna try holding that kind of a game at school but...I dunno if it'd ever happen. Went to the dealer's room one last time to get a tshirt and a plushie for my sister before heading home.
The con was a lot of fun and I'm gonna miss spending time with everyone. But I am glad to be home. I do miss sharing a bed with Justin though. I was getting used to having him next to me while I was sleeping. It was comforting being with three people I care a lot about though. The whole weekend was just what I needed, what I couldnt wait for, and everything I had hoped for. |
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| 09:57pm 03/04/2008 |
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so today, once I got out of work...SUCKED!!!
- called the doctor on Monday because I have an infection that won't go away. My doctor gave me an antibiotic to take once that day and another 3 days later. I called the CVS to refill the 2nd pill over the phone byt the machine and it wouldn't let me. Called the CVS personally and they said the insurance only covers ONE pill every 30 DAYS...how on earth is that even fair??? Just cause they want to save money for themselves, they're letting people suffer, who really need medication?? Granted, I really don't need the 2nd pill since I'm getting better, but I wanted to take it just to be sure. So I paid the extra 5 bucks for it (thankfully that was all) and went on my merry way
- been bugged by people now. I dunno if it's just things that are said and I'm taking them the wrong way or what, but I just feel so aggravated now that I don't really want to bother with anyone anymore.
- my coworker is on maternal leave for about a month so I was asked to work more. Not bad, since I'll be getting almost a $500 paycheck every 2 weeks, but I have no free time anymore like I did, which was nice. Kinda sucks at the moment because I have a dance for dance class to choreograph and I'm practically not available to practice with Tussy and Jeremy.
- went to the math department because I need math 103 and in the booklet itsays "placement, math 100, or math 102" as prerequiset (sp?) Apparently when I had asked someone about this before, it had said math 101 instead of 100 and now I can't take 103 until I take 102, because I hadn't taken it. So now I'm gonna be stuck at this school for another extra semester because I can't cram all these classes into 2 semesters for me.
- went to get food and spilled my friggin soda all over the island counter. I was so crabby I didn't bother to ask for a refill. Just kinda cleaned it up and left. Jonathan was really sweet and bought me another one and him, Tye, Louis, and Kara were trying really hard to cheer me up so I'm feeling a bit better than before.
I'm just so sick of this. I want to be done with school, and I have just no more motivation to finish. The only thing making me stay is the fact that I've been there for this long, I may as well finish and get my stupid piece of paper that says I went to a college. Big whoop. -sigh- well, I'm off to do something...just needed to vent out my frustration before I took it out on someone... |
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| 03:44pm 26/03/2008 |
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My God...how long have I not been on here?!? 0.o ...jeebus....oh well, here I am! *jumps around with joy*
So this is mainly a ranting entry (of course, the first entry in forever is a rant) I don't expect people to respond, I would appreciate not being lashed at for what I have to say. If you'd like to imput on something that was said...feel free.
1) Drivers...I hate...how hard is it to leave your cell phone in your pocket/bag while you're driving? And is it really necessary to plow through red lights, stop signs, cutting people off, and being just all-around jerks? It's NOT THAT HARD to obey the rules people!!! Apparently for some, it is...for those that have to speed around corners cause they like the sound of their tires squealing, you're not as cool as you think you are. In fact, you're probably a jerk just TRYING to look cool. I wonder how cool you'll be when you get pulled over by a cop.
2) I'm all for eating healthy and dieting if you're overweight but it's gotten really outta hand, dontcha think? I'm really sick of hearing about the new diet fad that comes out every day and how everything is getting 0 calories in it...Friggin KFC is going to GRILL their chicken...how in the world is it Kentucky FRIED (if I could underline the world 50 times, I would) Chicken...are they going to change it to Kentucky Grilled Chicken?
You healthy freaks need to stop. you're ruining everything that is good for the rest of us. All you need is moderation. Stop eating fried food and 6 slices of pizza every single day. Getting a large tub of popcorn slathered in butter at a movie theater, with two things of candy..and a large diet coke...aren't, AREN'T going to balance out! Stop doing it. Just eat in moderation. If you're still hungry after your parm sandwich, get a salad. It's healthy and good for you. Feel a bit bloated? Go for a walk around the block; the dog needs a walk.
3) Women should have equal rights...abortionists have an opinion...I'm really starting to wonder if anyone has a brain anymore. In Play magazine there was a section talking about the premiere of Horton Hears a Who...a bunch of abortionists decided to start a riot, putting tape over their mouths that said "LIFE" on them and saying, as reciting from the movie, "a person's a person, no matter how small". *smacks forehead* You have to go THAT low to fish around for something to justify your cause?? People are ruining television shows and movies and toys because "they arent safe for my child. It's too racey for my kid." Hello! Looney Tunes was on when I was a kid and I didn't understand much when it came to the hidden innuendos and such. But I still watched. And my parents didn't complain. So long as I didn't eat anything I wasn't supposed to and behaved, I was fine. Parents either are way too protective of their children, or not protective enough. I just cannot stand the activists who find anything and twist its words so it can benefit them.
4) I know I say this all the time but I will talk about it again, but because this is important to me. I'm sure that sex is a wonderful thing to experience and feels good. But why is it the center of almost everything? This day in age, thats all anyone seems to care about. Forget making a relationship with someone, forget romance, who needs it? Let's just have sex! Sex is fine for people who have been dating for awhile, a few years, maybe even almost a year. But if you're dating someone for 1 month and have sex it seems wrong in my mind. Everyone has their own opinion on it. I, personally, am waiting until marriage. I may eventually change my mind but I and keeping that decision, and there's no one that can change that. I like the fact that my relationship is based on love and trust and not on a sexual basis. I enjoy foreplay and I'm happy with doing just that. I may just be afraid to do it- so be it. When I get married, I will be the with the one person I would ever want to do the act with and it'll make me even more blessed that I had waited. Love is precious to me- I almost lost the one I love because of a mistake I had made. I love it exactly the way that it is and sex will change that. For good or bad I do not know, but I'm not ready for that kinda change just yet. I'm happy with no sex. And for anyone that doesn't agree with me, it's your own choice. I'm really happy that this is my decision though.
5) I HATE being sick!
Okay, my ranting is done! ^^ |
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| 10:15am 09/07/2007 |
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I'm SO glad I went on the Anime Next trip. It was so much fun! Didn't get to dress up as SAmus but I was a Geisha for a few hours until the makeup got so itchy I had to take it off. Took tons of pictures that are on Facebook for all to see, laughed so hard I cried, and I had the MOST fun at a dance than I ever had before. I thank Adam, Tuss, Liz, Kara, Matt and Z0r for that one ^_^ Justin even had fun once I finally taught him how to dance. Bought a crapload of things but it was definitely worth it. Went to a Masquerade, AMV contest- didnt win which made me sad because of what I lost to (Pussy Cat Dolls song >.< ewww!) But it just means I have to try harder next year. Maybe I'll take a shot at action or drama. And I got to spend all 3 nights in Justin's arms which was the greatest. I even tried some new things with him which I'm glad I did. Nothing extreme but it was still a lot of fun and I'm glad he came too- he had a ball.
Now I am home and a bit stress free. I paid off my tuition, my sickness insurance was waived so I only paid $700 instead of $1100, I have extra money, I'm set for school. I need to drop a class but I guess I gotta wait until later cause I can't get into my database for some reason on the internet to do it. *sigh* Now my next goal is- I wanna freakin draw again!!! I went to the Artist Alley at the convention and I bought two pictures. One is of the FMA gang and the other is Sora from Kingdom Hearts which looks absolutely fantastic. I'll have to figure out a way to get it online for you guys to see. And I really wanna draw again. I'm definitely gonna work hard to sell artwork next year at ConnectCon but I just never have time to. My mom said draw at work >.< I would if I could, lol. I think today while I'm there, if I have the time, I'll come up with some ideas and work on drawing em. I really do miss it- It will be my job someday! I don't want the talent to go away and it was my relaxation period. I wanna try again!! I think cause I was so set on my manga I just forgot to draw in general. I won't let that happen thats for sure ^_^
4th of July was fun too. Went over Justin's for a picnic and my parents met his for the first time. Took long enough, eh? Two and a half years later, lol, and they all had a lot of fun which I'm glad for. I love his family- theyre all so nice. My parents liked his too ^_^ Hooray!
On another note- Justin has a new job!!!!! ^______^ He works for...um...KMB? KB something, I insist it's KBToys and it's not, lol. But he gets covered for half of health insurance which is better than paying in full and he's going tomorrow to start and if he really likes it then they'll talk to him about working full time. I'm so happy for him!! I knew he was nervous and excited and needs a job, lol, so I'm excited and I hope he likes it. Now we are both working hard until I go back to school and my paychecks will get smaller, lol, but I'll be at school which is where I'd like to be anyway.
That's it for now. I'm home, my family is glad I'm home, I'M glad I'm home, I'm less stressed, I have enough crap to last me until next year, Justin and I got to spend a whole week together, everything is good. |
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| 01:46am 13/06/2007 |
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First note of business...
I'm officially in the Anime Next 2007 AMV Contest! After the hassle it took to get the stupid thing to NJ, I finally got an email today that it was accepted- thank god...now my problem is...thousands of people are going to see this thing?! *bites fingers and nails off*
Work has been fun. Doing database right now and the construction is ahead of schedule at the moment. Janey is basically taking over what it will look like and Dr. Stein is letting her, which she's happy about. She showed me all the colors and designs being used and the store will definitely look awesome when it's finished in July.
Saw Mr. Brooks today. I enjoyed the movie a lot actually. The guy, Mr. Brooks, is schizophrenic and his counterpart, Marshall as he is called, teaches Mr. Brooks (Earl) to be a serial killer. You watch how Earl is tormented by living the life of a killer, trying to hide his wrongdoings, and raise a family. His daughter, a freshman in college, dropped out, is pregnant, and killed someone at her school that only the father knows about. There's a cop that is trying to solve the crimes that the "finger print murderer" as Mr. Brooks is known for, kills his victims and leaves them in various poses. Usually they are couples he kills, leaving them kissing or embracing, etc. I find the movie..beautifully disturbing. I like how it was dark and portrayed the tormented Mr. Brooks and his struggle to become a normal person again. Marshall was a good character too and does have a conscience and looks out for Earl as well as have fun with the murders.
Another small vent...I hate having things I like controversed. I let my aunt borrow the Black Jewels Trilogy books, the first one anyway. She doesn't really like it or understand it and has been telling my grandmother and my mom. One character is Saetan and his son Dameon. It's a dark book. I love the series, I do not worship Saetan, but I like the books and the characters. My mom doesnt like that I read it. My family doesn't support the idea of me and Justin living together before we're married either. They won't stop me but they're not approving. It's not like I am going to go out and worship the devil because I'm reading a book with him in it. "You shouldnt be reading that kinda stuff" is the counterargument. I do a lot of stuff I probably shouldn't be doing! lol, but its a book. I enjoy the storyline and some of the characters, not necessarily them, so what is the problem?
My view on marriage and everything is that I would like to live with someone for a bit of time so I know that things will be okay between us. Just because we are living together and not married does not mean that we are still not committed to each other. When you're seeing someone, you should be committed to them anyway. Maybe not fully, but at least a bit. I want to live with Justin for a bit just to know that we can still talk to each other about things and not worry about petty little arguments tearing us apart.
Father's Day is coming up... I'm not particularly happy about that one. I love my father, but we don't have a close relationship. He was never around when I was younger- he's more into his work; even now. I looked up to my grandfather and my older cousin mostly. My older cousin I never see and my grandfather passed away a little less than a year ago. The 27th will mark 2 years since Kevin passed away and August will be 1 year since my grandfather died. I'm not doing well with his death. I keep crying. I don't really have any male to look up to anymore. Two of the greatest people that I looked up too are both gone and I just feel lost without them. Justin has been the greatest gift though. He's been looking out for me and at least letting me cry when I need to without even saying a word, just hugging me until I stop. I just want the summer to be over. I miss my friends. I miss the schoolwork. I miss being me.
Meh, I just have a lot going on in my mind right now that I needed to write down. |
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| 11:56pm 17/05/2007 |
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mood:  confused music: 'Je N'ai Pas De Mots'- Vic Mignogna
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Have you ever wanted to do something so badly, but you were confused about it, or thought maybe it wasnt such a good idea, or even scared/nervous and thinking "if im this nervous about it maybe i shouldnt"? Well either way, it's how I've been feeling lately about something. Kinda a personal issues but...I'm not sure what to do about it. it's my decision, thats all I know, so asking for advice on the subject isn't gonna happen. I'll just end up getting the same exact piece of advice from every single person I ask, lol, so it's a waste of breath. But I think I'll just not worry about it so much. If it's meant to happen, I guess it will. If I think so hard on the subject, maybe I'm not ready to even bother worrying about it at the moment.
This might be one of the most confusing entries I've ever written...I just wanted to get out a bit of things floating around in my head.
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| Creations, Projects, and Ideas, oh my! |
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| 08:16pm 16/05/2007 |
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mood:  creative music: 'the 3 karma'- shadow hearts 2 game
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Alrighty everyone, here is the official plan for the rest of my summer...
I am going to be working full-time at my job. If anyone wants to hang out, I'm free after 5 on SAturdays, after 7 during the week, and Sundays are my only free day off which will be hard to do a lot of stuff with you guys but you can always ask to hang out with me then, I'll do the best I can to hang out.
Twilight_Worlds is up and running. For those of you who don't know, it is going to be where I set up my first ever comic as I work on it. There's not much up for it right now but hopefully during the summer that will change. I'm working on characters and the dialogue for it at the moment, a few of the characters are already up to take a look at. Unfortunately, the blog I'm using is on livejournal and I have decided to set it up as Friends Only for copyrite purposes. I may change it (possibly if persuaded enough *coughcoughfullmetalstuffcoughcough*) But if anyone has a livejournal account or doesn't mind setting up one to take a lot at the stuff (PLEASE) look up Twilight_Worlds
I'm revamping 'Mr Eward Elric' (for those who saw it at Rising Sun) and am planning on sending it to Anime Next. Wish me luck! I'm also making two new AMVs that I hope to use in next year's festival and I don't plan on shwoing them to anyone (sorry Chris and Louis ^_^; )
Also, I have made it official- I'm going to be at ConnectiCon next year selling my artwork. I plan on making chibi drawings, original drawing, possibly selling my cmoc (BIG step there) and probably making bookmarks and the like. Any ideas on characters, drawings, or things to sell let me know, I could use the help ^_^
I plan on making a few cover art for my comic too by the way, I think I'm going to stay with Oni no Tenshi (Devil's Angel in Japanese) The name might change but so far it's fitting and I kinda like it. Keep a lookout for it cause I may end up showing it on here to see if anyone likes it or hates it or if I should change it at all.
Well I guess thats about it...thought this would be longer...ah well, this is it. Hope you guys enjoy the new productivity and creations you'll see soon from me! |
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| 09:29pm 12/05/2007 |
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mood: aggravated music: 'somewhere i belong'- Linkin Park
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I'm getting real aggravated tonight...I have so much crap to get done for school, the phone keeps ringing, I'm nervous my Typography project is gonna break, and movie maker is my mortal enemy now and I plan on getting a new program cause I HATE this one!
And why is it that now all of a sudden my boy wants to know where I am and keeps checking up on me? He couldn't wait to hang out with his friends today and didn't care that I was upset I wasn't gonna see him almost all weekend. Now that he's where he wanted to be he keeps calling wondering where I am cause I can't pick up the phone and keeps leaving me messages to call him back, when he knows I won't while he's with his friends. I don't care for his frinds. There, I'll admit it finally. I don't trust them, I don't particularly care for their morals and such but I put up with them cause they're nice to me and I have nothing against them, and they're Justin's friends. I don't like the fact that they booked a hotel for him for his birthday. I know he's turning 21 and I am a BIG person against those who drink, especially on their 21st. I had a lot of family issues so I tend to turn my back on people who drink for a brief time. he knows this. He promises he won't get drunk. I trust him...but I don't believe him.
So here I am, sitting in my room getting some work done, praying that he didn't turn into an idiot again cause he's with Jaryd and bought my tickets...cause if he didn't then I'm gonna be ripping pissed and won't go...AGAIN....I hate this! I wanna go see a concert and everytime I try to something always screws me over in getting tickets and then I have to hear "another time", "next time"...Fuck next time! Next time is now!!
I am so stressed out right now...lets see...here's why:
1) theres only 2 of us working for Dr. Stein right now until we move in back. We can't handle all the work and then I feel abd when Janey tells me how she stayed until 9pm doing work cause it was only her.
2) the obvious above about Justin
3) my exams are coming up and I'm nervous (as I always am when it comes to tests)
4) Utorrent is being retarded and isn't downloading FMA fast enough so I can redo "Mr Edward Elric' in time to send it to Anime Next for the AMV contest
5) Rascal Flatts concert I talked about above
6) I don't have ANY free time to do ANYTHING and don't have a lot of money cause I either am buying things I really need or spending it so Justin has dinner or can come visit me and whatnot (course he has the money to get dinner with his friends though)
7) I'm still sick. I'm not getting better and I'm not getting worse. The doctor won't give me antibiotics cause I'm not coughing up a lot of phlegm or getting a temperature....if I light my forehead on fire will he give me meds?
ARGH!!!!
Linkin Park music is going on...I'm gonna go watch Fullmetal Alchemist, read some D. Gray Man, wrap my mom's Mother's Day gift, maybe draw a bit, and just relax...I'm never gonna get better, doomed to be forever sick and probably kill my boyfriend in the process...sounds good to me right about now. Adios! |
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| Mouth of a Video Gamer |
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| 03:07pm 17/04/2007 |
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mood:  busy music: 'Scum of the Earth'- Rob Zombie
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Okay, so I'm thinking money-wise here...and I'm hoping that my logic and my brain somehow catch up to each other, make sense, and somehow end up the right way- what I'm intending to do >.<
I'm very happy- I was accepted for not one, but TWO $5,500 loans...EACH!!! Now, granted I'll probably only need to cover about $3,000 not including what my financial aid will cover, but it'll help out a LOT. Since I have a habit of only asking for whatever amount I need for the bill I'm given (and I never get the whole amount I ask for), I'm asking for the whole damn $5,500 for one of the loans for now. My plan is to have more money left over so I get reimbursed with it. Why?
Here's the fun part...I want an Xbox 360 and a PS3. Yes, I'm insane. Yes, I'm gonna be blowing a ton of money. Yes, I'm a gamer and want the systems. The 360 is about $200 from Amazon; not bad. I mainly want it, at the moment, for Mass Effect and Gears of War. The PS3 I've been wanting since I heard about it. I want Assassin's Creed, (I REALLY want Assassin's Creed), Lair, Resistance: Fall of Man, Heavenly Sword, and God of War 3 (when it comes out), I just really hope once I finally get one all the bugs will be worked out and the frickin blue ray will actually work. I'm not spending another $200 to buy a blue ray that SHOULD WORK with the system it's coming with! So for now, i'm aiming for an Xbox. Also thinking of getting a DS but that probably won't happen. I'm happy with my Advance, and I don't even play that all that much right now, so that would be a waste of money now anyway. Maybe I can sell mine back for some more extra money? We'll see...
So anyway..yea, I want a 360 and a PS3. So my plan should hopefully work. I even got a $220 check back from the government for my taxes (yipee!!) So maybe some of that will go towards the consoles as well. I do have to start saving for Sakura Matsui and Anime Next AND ConnectiCon (and pray the whole moving of my job works out too so I dont have to go looking for another job)
...My mother is going to kill me >.< But so long as I tell her I can afford it without losing out on anything and that my father doesn't find out for a very long time ^_^ I'm good to go. Let's just hope this all works out in my favor *crosses fingers* |
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| I am happy ^__^ And I've forgiven |
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| 08:30pm 15/04/2007 |
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mood: happy music: 'The Vengeful Spartan'- God of War
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I'm very lucky to have the friends that I do. Being very upset on Thursday (with Justin), I kinda hid from everyone else so I wouldn't have to let anyone see my angry tears. Four of my closest friends somehow figured out where I was and cheered me up the rest of the day, which I truly appreciate. That night the problem was fixed and I was talking to Chris. During the whole fight I had with Justin the night before I was talking to Chris about how I felt, how I wanted to feel, etc. When all was said and done and fixed Chris told me "I have never seen anyone talk so passionately about their significant other without any fear of embarrassment. You both have a gift, don't lose it". And he's right. I've been reflecting on my relationship for a few weeks now, mostly because of my small issue from the summer. And now I'm not really afraid to move on and forget what happened. I have forgiven myself for what happened...mostly...but I'm generally happy now. I am extremely happy with Justin, no matter what anyone else says. Yes, he can be a jerk sometimes. He doesn't always use common sense, he gets angry easily, he doesn't listen, he's childish...but he cares about me so much. He bends over backwards for me and I always try and do the same. And to be honest, I never really thought I could ever find someone like him. He's happy with me, I always see it. And I never want that to go away. We both do have a gift. We're best friends, we're boyfriend and girlfriend, we're together. That's all that really matters to me ^__^ Thank you guys for reminding me of that...really...you know who you are, I hope. What's happened in the past was partially my fault, but it can't be fixed. What was fixable has already been, and those who matter most to me are still here. |
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| Death Note review (me spazzing pretty much) and some info |
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| 12:30pm 06/04/2007 |
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mood: excited music: 'Just Like you Imagined'- Nine Inch Nails
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OH....MY....FRICKING...GOD!!!
I just watched Death Note the live action movie and...O.O
I'm still sitting here amazed. The movie was just absolutely incredible. It follows the manga really well from up to the point that I've seen, which isn't much. The acting is done well and the way they created Ryuk is just...creepy..even better than in the manga version.
So for those of you who don't know the story of Death Note, it follows the life of Light Yagami, a high school kid who stumbles onto a notebakk called the Death Note. Weite any name in it that you want, and think of the person's face, and they will die within 40 seconds of a heart attack. With the book comes Ryuk, a shinigami who the book belonged to. Once the book falls into a human's hands it's theirs to keep or they can pass it along to someone else, but at a price. Light tends to keep the book and attempt to rid the world of criminals and horrible people. Ryuk tags along thinking that people are interesting. Soon, the unexplainable deaths of criminals attracts the FBI, the Kanto region of Japan's police, and L, a brilliant detective of whom you don't see for a good percentage of the movie. The police's only way of communicating with him is through his only partner, and a computer with the letter 'L' on the screen talking with a funny voice. While they are trying to investigate where "Kira" (Light's alias name for the world to know of who is behind all of this) is located, Light is slowly becoming used to the world of the Death Note. He can ever create into more detail how his victims will perish. Soon L hatches a plan (a brilliant one I will admit, I was shocked) that pinpoints where exactly Light lives and that he is a high school student. The rest of the movie is Light trying to shake the FBi, L, and the police off his tracks by trying to come up with more ways to kill people more creatively in an attempt to make the investigators believe Light really isn't behind all these attacks.
L was definitely my favorite character of the movie. He's really odd and you don't expect him to be who he is (don't wanna spoil it for those who haven't seen Death Note before) but he's definitely a very smart person.
This movie is fantastic and I recommend it to anyone who likes anime. I'll even give it to you if you want, lol. Even if you've never seen the show, you can still follow it easily and not get confused. The ending is definitely a complete shocker, at least for me. I'm trying to get Death Note: The Last Name right now, which is the sequal and picks up where Death Note leaves off.
On another note, for those of you who friended Twilight_Worlds, 3 character profile and pictures are up. My links are being retarded and aren't showing a thumbnail of the picture, like I asked, so all you get is a link but the picture blows up nicely so...sorry >. |
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| 03:58pm 05/04/2007 |
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mood:  calm music: 'It's All the Same'- Sick Puppies
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So things have been well. My Typo. project is halfway done, I got some scholarships done, and I've got profile info for 8 of my characters in my manga. Their pictures will be up tonight...well...for 4 of them cause the others aren't done yet, lol. I also have to do my state taxes!!! I'm learning how to do them on my own. My dad wouldnt help me do them 2 nights ago because American Idol was on. Stupid show, it's all fake anyway. It's a frickin popularity contest which is why I never watch it. I can watch better programs like 24 and House. At least House is educational.
So this weekend is Easter and I got a pretty new shirt my mommy bought for me to wear. Justin needs to borrow my computer to make his AMVs for the festival cause his Movie Maker doesn't like him. I wanna convince him to go see a movie with me this weekend too. I don't really care what we see, I just wanna go. I gotta run to CVS to fill out an application for a job and get a few other things done. At least the workload is starting to thin out. Thank God! |
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